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Name: Myx
Country: Philippines
Birthday: 6/2/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Photography, Music, Fiction Books, Movies, Sleeping, Chatting, Singing, Dancing, Editing websites, Mrs. Field's Cookies, Earrings... Langya madami. Tinatamad na kong i-elaborate. :P
Occupation: Student
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Yahoo:  m_y_x_i_e
Member Since:
9/14/2003
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Oh the IRONY.
I realized that I haven't cleaned my archives for the longest time. So before I delete the three unimportant ones, I wanted to document how funny it is that their names are all lined up together. :)) Of course you won't get what's funny unless you know me since high school or you're part of the insignificant three or the really significant ones who know me too well.
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I take back what I said about love that's dormant and shit and crap. Because now that I found the guy who made me special and treated me the way I wanted, no, needed to be treated, and loves me just as I am, I can honestly say that I feel no love for the other three. Maybe I just appreciate the good memories and just forgot and discarded the bad ones in the past. But that's it. They're just memories now. I actually feel no ounce of "affection", and lost respect for the other one, and yeah, I really have moved on.
I plan to really make my current relationship work. And really make it last forever. And it's scary because this will be the most challenging since he's in law school and i'm only gonna be home every 6 months for the next few years. But I really want him to be the last one. I want him to be my forever and ever. I want to have his beautiful 2 sons and daughter. And he seems to want the same thing too. :D
It's good that my intentions in a relationship are finally reciprocated and I couldn't be any happier. :D
Finally. Thank you God! :P And it's scary because we saw each other 5 years ago and not know about it until we talked about it later! Talk about "I knew I loved you before I met you."
Ahihihi. ;))
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| Affected ako.
Broken Strings - James Morrison and Nelly Furtado
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
shet. naiyak ako as in. :(
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| How do you find the words to say goodbye?
When your heart don't have the heart to say goodbye...
I just read Estar's emo post about Poner Fin.
"Not too late for a pleasant surprise!"
Nalungkot ako bigla... Magpapaalam na tayong lahat sa 2008.
I'm just not ready. But like it or not, it's gonna come in 6 days!
Leaving 2008 for me means leaving alot of things behind.
- 4ca3
- AA :((
- Partying ir(responsibly)
- Inumans!!!
- Summer and Christmas vacations
- UST
...and many more.
Anyway. Like I always do, RECAP! :)
January:
First few rehearsals begin for Pambabae, Panlalaki. :D
February:
Pambabae, Panlalaki. :) My second acting role as sugar and my third artistic job as mother stage manager. :D :D
My first ACTUAL valentines day na matino. :)
March:
Elections. WAHHH. OMG. PRO Internal for AA. Wow wow. I'm so happy na I can serve the org more because of this. :D
Ahem ahem. Advertising Agency of the YEAR!
April:
OJT at Roadrunner!!! :D :D
OMG NABILI KO NA FINALLY YUNG CAMERA KO!!!! Yey Blair. :D
May:
Dapat talaga magpapangalawang OJT pa ko pero tinamad na ko. haha.
Reorientation at ako ang OIC. Waw. :D
June:
Start na ng senior year. OMG. :(
July:
TLP. Production designer ako. At alam kong andami kong pagkukulangs. Hay.
August:
Start na ng prep for Anathemuh.
September-October:
Di ko na maalala. Pero ayon. Naprint na ang pinaghirapan kong souvenir program!
Hay. Fuck IMC!
Nag costume party sa Embassy. At nag angel ako.
OP OP OP OP!
November:
Wala naman masyado. Bored.
Namulat ang mata ko sa twilight. Nainlove ako ke Edward Cullen. At nanood ako ng premiere ng twilight. :))
December:
Poner Fin. Congrats ke Gabby. :) :) :)
4ca3 block party!
Paskuhan na sandali lang ako!
Embassy!
AA Christmas party!
Nakumpleto ko for the second year in a row ang simbang gabi!! :D
Kamusta. 5 days akong wala sa bahay!!!
Nawala yung taong pinakamamahal ko. :( Sa panahon pa na dapat masayang masaya kami dahil suuuuper daming occasions to celebrate. Pero di talaga maiiwasan. Hay. Oh well. Purposes purposes. Marahil ito narin yung pinakamalungkot at pinakanakakapagod kong pasko. Lahat ng tao sa bahay inaaway ko. Literal. Naguguilty ako kasi naiintindihan nila ako. :( Pero ayon na nga. I'm happy na hindi? Nakakainis lang na lahat ng tao nagagalit saakin pag malungkot ako. Parang. Haller. Wala na ba kong karapatan maging malungkot kahit 5 minutes lang siya dahil bi-polar ako? Pag tinatago ko, nagagalit kayo at pinipilit niyong "ilabas ko lang." Pag nalulungkot ako or nagsspace out ako, sinasabi niyo naman na "nasaan na yung pride mo? look happy!" Um. Kasi sa totoo lang di ko na alam yung dapat kong emosyon? LABO!
Basta ayon. I'm at peace with what happened. 'nuff said. :)
Anyway, ayon na nga. I'm saying goodbye to 2008 na.
And welcoming 2009.
I just hope that 2009 brings more greener pastures and better opportunities.
Thank you Lord. :)
//edit:
I actually got GOOD presents this year. Got a nice bag, a THONG (HAHAHA), 200 bucks, lots and lots of chocolates, a bottle of lotion, BEER, nice purse and ice cream necklace, fooood, and more. :) Yay.
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| 2 days.
I don’t really feel like Christmas is coming.
I’m not even excited.
I never even bothered to ask or to think about my wish for the Misa de Gallo. I’m proud to say that I have completed the 4am mass in four different churches – including two in the provinces, but still, even after all the efforts I exerted to complete it for the second time in a row, nope, no Christmas-y feelings are present in my soul.
Even after attending 4 Christmas parties in 5 days, I don’t feel happy.
I have never felt this sad for the supposedly “jolliest time of the year.”
I’m not expecting anything. For the first time in my life, I’m just looking at Christmas like it’s any other day. Except that there’s a grandiose family reunion, a chance to keep up with the recent family gossip, maybe score a few bucks from my working cousins, get brand new stuff that I don’t really need and that’s it.
I envy my ex-boyfriend’s family. Right now, my house is the exact opposite of their house. I’m both impressed and amused that they even have advent candles and they have this gargantuan tree in the middle of their living room while we don’t even have one indication in this house that just screams about the upcoming occasion.
If it wasn’t for the carols and the crisp air smelling like burnt coal, I wouldn’t know.
I just feel so down because I don’t feel excited. Or vice versa. :(
I seriously just hope that I do get what I need. Even if it’s something that I don’t want.
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